Yesterday was a pretty big, exhausting day for me. First with the funeral, then meeting misters father for the first time after them not speaking for 2 years.
So yeah, tears for days yesterday…
Some of us cried a lot at the cemetery. I managed to get myself into a fight with a cousin I hadn’t seen in years. There was at least a half an hour bathroom talk between me and my 2 cousins who I used to be close with. Everything was dragged to the surface yesterday, everyone was incredibly close.
Its like a dictatorship fell, and finally, all the people that were under the dictatorship were finally free to talk to each other. And we all faught and cried and reminisced together. But it felt real, it felt raw.
There were no masks or social standards worn or upheld yesterday. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like I was going through the same emotions as everyone else. And they finally all listened to me, and I learnt some things I never knew.
This isn’t going to be a long post, because I’m emotionally exhausted. Just wanted to share this song. These are the songs I play when it’s time for me to try and pull myself out of the depression again.
I love these musicals so much.
I performed this next musical, and I loved the message that this song in particular held for children.