For Now

Yesterday was a pretty big, exhausting day for me. First with the funeral, then meeting misters father for the first time after them not speaking for 2 years.

So yeah, tears for days yesterday…

Some of us cried a lot at the cemetery. I managed to get myself into a fight with a cousin I hadn’t seen in years. There was at least a half an hour bathroom talk between me and my 2 cousins who I used to be close with. Everything was dragged to the surface yesterday, everyone was incredibly close.

Its like a dictatorship fell, and finally, all the people that were under the dictatorship were finally free to talk to each other. And we all faught and cried and reminisced together. But it felt real, it felt raw.

There were no masks or social standards worn or upheld yesterday. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like I was going through the same emotions as everyone else. And they finally all listened to me, and I learnt some things I never knew.

This isn’t going to be a long post, because I’m emotionally exhausted. Just wanted to share this song. These are the songs I play when it’s time for me to try and pull myself out of the depression again.

I love these musicals so much.

I performed this next musical, and I loved the message that this song in particular held for children.


4 thoughts on “For Now

  1. Wow! Kids programming has certainly changed! I never got anything that talked about depression like that. It was all happy and sunshine, what’s wrong with you, Mr. Grumpy?

    It sounds like you’ve had one hell of a day. I hope everyone in the family found it cathartic. Sounds like maybe they did. ❤

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    1. Avenue Q is not for children for sure, it’s meant to be an adult comedic version of Sesame Street with songs like ‘the Internet is for porn’ and ‘everyone’s a little bit racist.
      I don’t know whether you liked the suessical song or not :/
      Yeah for sure, we made our peace and it feels like any bad blood is gone, so that’s good.

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      1. Yes, I DID like the Suess song, as a matter of fact. I liked both. lol! And Avenue Q may be meant for adults, but people let kids watch South Park, too. I’ll bet some of them are exposed to it. I’ll have to look up some more of their stuff… 🙂

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